Sunday, September 16, 2007

Bright Tunnel

There is always a part inside us which refuses to budge,which refuses to evolve,which refuses to reason,something which is born out of defeciency. We have all fought little wars in this insignificant life of ours,wars in theory but silent struggle in practical.There is no acknowledgement of tears,no soothing hand,no consoling shoulders.Everything is tattered but only one thing remains.Memories, which haunts you in and out,the ignominy in which you are thrown into.But, out of this is born one fact which we so casually ignore,forget easily.

Through out this ordeal, there is only one person which stands by you,tries bolstering you with all he has,but have we ever given it a thought?Have we ever acknowledged his presence?we want to cling on to myriad things in life when in trouble or strees,but have you ever tried loving something which stays through, no matter how taut or loose.Have you ever tried loving YOU?Even if you have no one in your life, you'll have yourself with you, its silent presence through the long tearful nights can't be ignored.Loving yourself doesn't mean looking into the mirrorand admiring your tresses, it means looking into yourself and admiring your values, it means trying to lift yourself with each passing second, it is about being true to the highest in yourself(the last line, courtsey Ayn Rand),it is about being still loving yourself,even ifthe whole world has turned its back.But, who needs the whole world if you have got yourselfwith you?I mean it is not a wrong thing if people adore you, but your being with yourself is the most important thing, and on the contrary even if the whole world likes you, but you can't respect and love yourself, then all that love which is being heaped upon is of no use.And that age old adage still holds good, "If you can't help yourself, no one else can help you".We have seriously become so busy with our scheduele that we have stopped peeping into ourself, stopped analysing purselves, stopped loving ourselves.

Also, something about insecurities.This life will come in many phases, phases means a stage in your life where you begin your account with zero emotion(zero emotion with respect toother people)where people don't know what kind of person you are,where they don't know aboutyour insecurities, and that is where the catch is,you should never mingle your past withyour present,you should never let the unhappiness of past cloud the happiness of present,because it was your past,it was your problem, and even if it is your problem,It is your problem.Sounds selfish,eh?But this is just the way life functions.

And by chance,if you start feeling weak by feeling lonely, don't worry, just close your eyes and think about yourself,your values,your vision,your dreams.You will never feel alone.Ifyou have you and your dreams with you,what else do you need?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Nice to see you back.
Your style is getting better with each writing...

arpana said...

nice post, gets one thinking.